crushed

2010-12-04T01:38:00.001-08:00

Going oversea.
will be back on 12 dec.
see ya.

2010-12-04T01:28:00.000-08:00

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2010-12-02T18:36:00.001-08:00

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2010-12-01T05:51:00.000-08:00

sorry xinhui!

i decided to sell my things here...

hahas. coz i have to much things that I don't want.

Chubby people has their difficulties.

how do i know whether i can fit into those clothes...

when i can't even try it?!

i know, i know...

i should slim down,

LIKE HELL I DON'T WANT SO.

anyways...

this is the reason why i have tons of clothes that i didn't even wore once.

so, i decide to sell my clothes here, IN THIS SHOP!

lmao. tell me if you like it. discount for friends.

2010-10-22T01:23:00.000-07:00

its time to post again!

I only post when I have something to complain about life?

And of course, my life rocks till band came along...

hahas. will they be pissed?

heck care la. I had already said so much.

Btw, the teachers are getting smarter day by day.

they even to class just to "get" us.

they learnt that we won't answer their phone calls.

why will they even bother to try and talk us into going band.

come on, we are all sec 3s.

we have our own thinking, do they think they can change us?

anyway, im getting better in lying.

I can even think up of a lie on the spot.

hahas. good job, brain.

I was very pissed off this afternoon after talking to the teachers.

I was complaining that the teachers did not go band everyday.

why would they expect us to do that?

hey. my e-maths score 83 and I finally pass my F&N.

it prove that I can only cope with studies.

So what if I get my CCA points but I didn't score well for my O levels.

Sorry that im not like those smart kids out there who can cope well with both.

Anyway, they also give A1 for those leaders so why should I go?

seriously, im tired of lying and you know that im lying.

so stop asking me why?

we both know why I don't want to come.

you only call us when you need us otherwise we are just useless to you.

i have bad attitude and im not really that great,

so please just leave me alone...

2010-07-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

today was just a normal day bah.

except that im still coughing my lungs out.

but guess i deserve it?

i still eat curry chicken when im coughing.

dumb.

but anyways,

got slapped by lots of ppl today.

khairi miss his aiming and it landed HARD on my face.

damn him.

hahas. hafiz too!

just keep getting slap by ppl.

finally talk to xinhui about my problems.

i think everything is okay le?

she say she dont mind but i just got a feeling she is not.

haiz. trying not to think that hard.

didnt go band today AGAIN.

its like so many days never go, one more day wont hurt.

they dont need me.

not in a angry way but i hope that they understand.

i really dont like going band.

the feeling that im alone in it just sucks.

well, there's julyy but its not the same la.

i mean, look at them.

always together. even going to the toilet they are together.

it is hard for me to join them no matter what.

we just have different point of view.

it has always been this way.

so no point of going.

just throw everything to them...

2010-06-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

OMG,OMG!!!
well, some of you know that i have done some readings...
and one of the book i just read is BEASTLY.
by alex flinn.
IT IS GOING TO BE A MOVIE!!!
WITH ALEX PETTYFER AS THE BEAST!!!

FYI, he is the one in ALEX RIDER!!!

sorry for the screaming but im so EXCITED.

but why the heck is vanessa hudgens in it?!

she totally sucks.

SHE IS ACTING AS THE BEAUTY!!!

the director or producer certainly has no eyes.

but im willing to forgiving them as ALEX PETTYFER is in it.

ohh! marykate is in too.

acting as a witch.

almost everyone wish that their roles was swap.

i mean marykate is definitely better.

the story is about the modern version of beauty and the beast.

the movie is totally different from the book.

but im happy that it is already becoming a movie.

hahas:P

Here's the trailer, hope you enjoy!

2010-05-28T22:57:00.000-07:00

today is so damn bored.

i had nothing to do.

maybe i should continue my coursework

but nah.

dont feel like doing it.

i was thinking recently...

why do school want to let us have sex education?

it makes things worse instead of improving things.

people from the oldies are so conservative because they dont have sex eduacation.

they didnt know that it is something normal.

and they felt ashamed of it.

however, school teaches student that it is something normal.

they taught us to be open.

therefore, students nowadays are TOO open.

i said that it was the education that spoils us.

how ridiculous.

people might say,

if we didnt have sex education,

how do we know how to do it?

then think agian.

do animals have sex education?

no. they dont have.

but why are they able to give birth?

i can say that people have it in their blood.

i mean who actually learn the word sex from schools?

no one learn how to have sex from their teachers.

so what is the point of sex education?

it teaches us how to be open and it is normal nowadays.

if they didnt even teach us stuff like that,

we might even be so pure and innocent.

see how the sex education corrupt teenagers minds.

2010-05-26T05:10:00.001-07:00

im tired.

seriously damn tired...

after tomorrow, i hope all this will be gone.

there is too much going on today.

there is he and she.

problems that i need to solve.

just hope that he could really jump.

im not going to care anymore.

after realizing that im being lied to.

feel so stupid.

i did so much, trying to help.

yet, this is what i get?!

i could guess that she is pissed off too.

like we say, F**K OFF!

never come into our life again.

we truly care for you and this is what we get?

you got what you deserve.

im so sorry?

but i hate band.

seriously, stop calling and ask why im not there.

what is the point of being there?

first is GL, then BL finally DM!

wow.

i had manage to get a DM to "call" and ask why im not there.

great influence i had there.

thought that i was just a nobody.

hahas.

i think the june holidays is the great time for me to think.

should i go or not.

i dont think i will.

i mean im deserve a break or so.

a long break, no those short weeks.

one whole month should be enough.

but seriously, stop calling.

the only answer you will get is tuition, sick...

blah, blah, blah.

i mean you had your clique so why bother about us?

no offence, but im the odd one there.

everyone having something to do,

but i seriously had no idea what the heck im suppose to do there.

there is LOTS of leaders there to take the juniors.

thus, im not important.

you do not need me there so why bother?

just leave me alone.

break is needed for ppl like me.

senior but not graduating, no position.

look at julyy and mark.

good examples.

2010-05-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

SS501 NEW ALBUM!!!

DESTINATION!

ooh. their new look totally rock!

so damn cool with the mask.

you cant really recognize them.

except for JungMin.

his eyes is kind of obvious?

Wanted to buy the album but it is 40plus?

quite expensive sia.

so i guess i will wait till it is released in Singapore.

will post the pics next time.

2010-05-12T04:12:00.000-07:00

oops. didnt blog for like two months?

i make a promise to myself

that i should blog every now and then to improve my english.

my "powderful" english!

hahas:)

started to play bball this few weeks.

went playing today with the 2e1 boys.

except a few of them went home before i came.

i regretted playing AFTER cutting my hair.

the guy help me blow my hair till damn nice

and i spoiled it for playing bball.

haiz.

it went back to a boomz after that.

supposedly. ZiQi was going to cut her hair together with me.

but she have a mahjong session.

so she left me for the mahjong.

i cant even win against the mahjong.

so i took justyn with me as a substitute.

his new hairstyle is DAMN NICE!!!

but it make his face look fatter.

hahas:)

ATTENTION TO ALL GUYS OUT THERE,

I, Cassandra Lee, strongly recommend this shop

(which is next to my mum bubble tea shop, the one WITHOUT lots of poster)

for you to cut there.

2010-04-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

i dont wish to believe but there is a distance between us.

we were once so close...

yet now,

we act like we did not know each other.

im tired of being the one taking the initiative.

cant you be the one for just one time?

seriously, im tired.

i thought that i was special.

like you were to me...

but now,

im know that im wrong.

sorry for troubling you.

i must have been noisy, bossy and everything else.

i wont disturb you anymore.

just to let you know that you had always been a special friend,

and im sorry

but please dont hate me...

2010-03-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

so long never post!

busy and tired for these few weeks.

haiz.

im having a bad feeling since march holidays.

surprisingly, the only time which i can calm is when

im doing formation or

listening to bella's lullaby...

i just hope i can get a good night sleep.

its been a long time since i slept without any dreams or nightmares.

Argh!!!

and i cant seem to forget the dream.

i should just stop thinking about it.

SYF is coming soon.

i couldnt concentrate in classes.

what is wrong with me?

i just want to stop this feelings.

the only way is to sleep but im having nightmares!

even though i cant remember most of it...

im still somehow scared of it.

haiz.

2010-03-22T08:20:00.000-07:00

im so damn tired...

everyone is the same, i think.

band-ed for the whole week

of course tired lah.

everyone is ch-iong their homework now.

i still got damn lots of homework to finish.

SS essay, geog project, heymath...

2010-03-19T05:47:00.000-07:00

why do teachers like to give us so much homework?

cant we have a life?!

holidays is meant for us to rest, not die from it.

btw, imagine someone dying in holidays...

hahas:)

they should just get a life!

i didnt even touch my homework.

im so going to hell.

tomorrow still got sectional and geog project to do.

dying is way more easier.

I HATE HOLIDAYS!!!

2010-03-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

im so pissed off.

that teacher is seriously too much.

i need to clarify that im always the cheerful helpful type of students

well,

it is good to not to pissed the teacher off.

i had never ever any of my teachers trouble since young.

and just because of that teacher,

my record is gone!

which teacher have the rights to scold student "no brains"

and in front of everyone in a loud voice.

why we cant eat?

i didnt even eat breakfast today and i shared my dinner yesterday.

is not like we didnt listen to her.

she told us not to eat INSIDE the URA

and i 'suffered' till we went OUTSIDE of URA.

she still scold me no brain.

what the heck she want?

finally it reached my limits and i talked back.

cant blame me...

btw, everyone is supporting me.

i receive PRAISES about talking back.

she is now officially the teacher i most hate.

3 cheers for her!

since she make a impression...

2010-03-10T04:43:00.000-08:00

im so damn pissed of today.

i have not been sleeping well these days.

i mean, who does?

went to school early to have sectional.

and they are, rushing the tempo.

yeah, yeah, i know you can play well so?!

there is people out there trying to make some sense out of the score

and down they were,

rushing the stupid tempo.

nevermind.

i tried to understand that they are already used to it.

but when there is someone clapping the tempo, music playing

they still can rush and even play wrong.

the worst, they just laugh it off.

maybe i shouldnt even go.

i still have one more hour for me to sleep.

they will only scold us if we play too loud or fast.

please la! they are always the one playing damn loud.

other than that, my whole day have been pleasant.

haiz.

can just sleep forever and not wake up?

2010-03-09T04:35:00.000-08:00

there are times where you wish for someone to depend on...

im tired. really, truly.

im sick of this world.

sick of myself.

this going to my newest way of relieving stress.

there is just no one to talk to.

maybe the walls around me is stronger than before.

she is the only one who i can show myself to.

it was because of me.

IM SO SORRY, BRENDA!

please forgive me.

i really wish that time can rewind,

and i promise not to make any mistake this time.

anyway, im not trying to let people pity me here.

i hate having people shooting me the "you are such a poor thing" look.

im too proud. hahas.

things getting more and more complicated.

cant everyone just hate me?

leaving me alone might just do the trick...

my mask is dropping off.

people ask why am i so emo today?

cassandra always have to be CHEERFUL!!!

i know that people dont expect me to be cheerful all the time.

but i am already used to be cheerful in front of people.

too proud to be myself...

2010-03-08T02:45:00.000-08:00

went to flickr.com and found this.

this is so like julyy blog.

hahas:)

she always have nice pic posted.

anyway today was not such a bad day.

school was quite fine then sectional...

the warm-up is so damn nice!!!

i hope the four of us can really play it together.

recently i start to get irritated by what she does.

find her very bossy and expect us to do everything.

we have to do what she want but she just cant do the same thing.

in a way, just bossy.

someone told me is that i cant reject her.

maybe it was my problem after all.

just wanted to say out everything but do not want to spoil our relationship.

i can only post on blog so no one will know who is it.

haiz. life is so tiring.

why is everybody expecting me to do something?

i really want to say NO!!!

why do they have to force me?

i already give them a "i dont want" face!

stressrelieved...

MWGW!MWGW!MWGW!MWGW!

soem secret that i couldnt tell

but cant control my mouth.

so oops!

2010-03-07T05:38:00.000-08:00

dont know what is wrong with me these days.

crying at almost everything.

guess that im going through puberty now?

hahas:)

yesterday band-ed for the whole day

then today go make the drum skin.

havent even start on my homework.

should stop posting, start to chiong...

2010-02-19T20:31:00.001-08:00

getting bored of blogging to hurt people.

since she say she is not affected

i shouldnt waste time.

going to find pork now at bishan

study study study.

2010-02-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

going to blog about emo stuff again...

just found out today that EVERYONE hate him.

okayy. not everyone but people who have a mind on their own.

i thought was like only me and a few people who i felt i shouldnt name.

so it was not my problem, its yours.

been thinking a lot this year.

precisely everything change.

didnt even talk to them during the whole band.

not that i did it on purpose but just nothing to talk about.

i should stop naming since i felt a bit guilty.

obviously not because that i had hurt them

but just because me, myself.

this can prove that im selfish!

why do they keep acting innocent?

maybe they are really innocent...

i choose not to believe.

people used to think that julyy is those backstabber

but actually she's not.

when she dont like somebody she will just say

but to me,

i like to act friendly in front of them but backstab them.

i dont usually tell you how i feel

but of course,

i hardly dont like a person only them?

wondering what are they thinking when they read my blog...

2010-02-19T07:37:00.000-08:00

never post like for quite a long time.

must post!

someone told me that blogging will improve English,

even if you write in singlish?!

anyway, was talking to my mum just now.

we were actually watching 妻子的诱惑...

somehow we started talking and end up at a topic,

"who is the one which you will cry in front of?"

i told her it was my BELOVED mother.

the story starts when i was around pr.4

i fall down once, which left a big scar on my leg now.

i didnt cry since my friends was beside me.

but the moment i reached home and saw my mum...

i started to cry VERY LOUDLY!

she had a fright at that time since i suddenly burst out crying.

when she saw the wound

she started scolding me for being careless

and i just cry all the way when she clean my wound.

actually it was not very painful since i endure all the way back home.

back to the present...

she told that she can be very strong outside,

except when it comes to my father.

she will just cry and cry.

which to a large extent i agree.

so who is the person which you will cry in front of?

2010-02-10T02:48:00.000-08:00

"sometimes you forgive a person is because you still want them in your life."
then why am i unable to forgive?
do i really want them out of my life?
or it is im the one who i hate?
what should i do?
"is there really a heaven?"
i was looking up at the sky yesterday,
it was so vast, so peaceful.
i wish that the time would stop there.
i will not need to think.
thinking is a VERY tiring thing.
sometimes, i just hope that im a idiot.
at least i will not need to think.
JUST BREATHE

2010-02-07T05:46:00.000-08:00

another thing that i realised.
i have such a big influence.
her blog is un-private again.
sometimes, i just have to be mean.
see?! im capable of making someone hate you.
"JUST A MISUNDERSTANDING."
who knows.
they just cry and cry and cry.
these feelings started last year,
when they talk about their class LOUDLY.
infront of me, the stupid one.
they will never know how much i studied.
why should i tell them?
thats why i acted like i dont care.
i was trying hard not to cry and there they were,
"i was so scared that i couldnt get into the class i wanted"
i wanted to slap them in the face.
they only keep their mouth shut in front of her.
they wont want her to feel sad.
hurt twice.
shouldnt even appeal.
still act happy for the one.
couldnt even cry in front of anyone.
not even my family.
i can just say "too bad" to myself.
who knows how i feel.
i dont ask for much but can see the diff. between the treatment.
they will just say,
"im so sorry, i didnt mean it"
can i slap you and say i didnt mean it?
they will only pity me coz they dont want me to quit.
this kind of ppl are the reasons for others to quit ****.
i shouldnt comfort her the other day.
bitch!(myself)
should let her have a taste of 'being stupid'.
"I GET 58/70!!! wohoo!"
this is what i should say!
maybe ppl will scold me for blogging this.
if you dont like just press the 'cross' on the top right corner.
you guys are always the cute little harmless fragile ones.
ppl always take your sides so why should i care!
i not always the good cassie that always care and never hurt.
sad for you if you mistaken me.
im not that nice as i seen.
i can hate you but treat you nice.
im good at backstabbing in my humble opinions.
this is only the beginning.
you will cry like shit after the end.
i can be very nice to you but if you ever did me wrong,
you find yourself in a position that you regret.

2010-02-07T03:52:00.000-08:00

yay! im a rich girl.
i have $30 in my wallet now.
the money that i earned.
julyy and zuofu ask me how come i have $50!
isnt it obvious?!
I WORK!!!
or else what? i steal meh!
anyway, i get scolded by my mum from getting home late.
on friday.
i went to church with karen,
reach home at around 10.
in the end,
saturday cannot go band
sunday cannot go church.
at least i can earn money on sunday...

2010-02-05T18:25:00.000-08:00

ahhh!!!!!!!!!!
why my blogskin become like that!
dont tell me that i need to change.
that means that i need to choose one more
which will take a very long time.
heck care la

2010-02-01T05:18:00.001-08:00

my sis and me in the salon doing rebonding and hair treatment.
wanted to upload the some funny of hafiz in class but cant find it
maybe tomorrow or wednesday.

2010-02-01T04:49:00.000-08:00

ooh. just found from julyy that chinmei blog is private.
should be my previous post la.
somehow already expected it to happen.
i think that i told a lot of people that the reason friends fall out
is because of the reason below:
when both x and y becomes best friend
and start to understand each other better
they will start to hate each other
because they expect each other to be perfect
or someone they thought he or she were
when they are not,
they disgust each other.
but that is not what happen in my case.
is just that they do not trust me like i trust them.
i didnt believe that they will backstabbed me.
to some of you, it might not be that serious
but i hate it when someone talk about me behind my back
and not admit it.
i mean who dont gossip but do you do that to your best friend.
maybe they do not think of me as their best friend.
being all quiet when they are talking
treating me as invisible.
i had enough.
i will be as foolish as i was for the last two years.
i rather have no one to talk to
then to see your attitude.

2010-01-28T06:30:00.001-08:00

2010-01-28T04:21:00.000-08:00

goin' to talk about my attitude these days.
if you are goin' to be bored,
then dont read...
it is mostly about band.
i think this is my rebellious moment.
karen just ask me in msn why i never go
just say that i feel tired and is my own attitude
haiz...
i seriously dont know what to say.
read chinmei blog and
i can see she blame it on julaina la.
well, she told me that she feel that julyy is the one who change us
me and weishian...
actually, its not.
no one can change me if im not willing.
i might look weak but im strong in my humble opinions
btt(back to topic), they want to know my feelings rite?
im going to say, RIGHT HERE.

first, they dont appreciate me.
i dont expect myself to be a what leader
or even feel jealous because im not chosen.
for the last two years,
i gave my all to band.
then what,
just for one stuupid tuition,
they show me their attitude.
i admit that im stuupid, slow in learning.
but do you always have to compare who is the best.
im trying my best right here not to be the worse
and this is how you guys treat me.
to be exact,
i only learn music since sec one,
and you compare me to those who got music background.
i know some seniors dont like me since sec one.
i just laugh it off since they graduated,
lets not talk about them.

you ask me in where i dont feel appreciated.
let me tell you.
when i "take care" of yuxi,
did anyone say thanks for making her feel welcome.
instead they just push everything to me.
"pls ask to what?" "tell her cannot"
and complain everything to me.
tell me that she might as well quit or what.
why am i doin' this?
i also dont know.

Secondly, i feel that im not respected.
even im wrong or what,
do you have to scold me in front of the juniors.
tryin' to make me embarrassed so i will learn?
good idea, the best idea i ever heard.
they never respect anyone in their lives.
call me pig, call kirthika black and others
we have feelings okay?
i know that you are joking but sometimes it hurt.
i laugh it off, what can i do?
i know im in the wrong for not respecting shawn
for telling him that i dont want to be bass drummer.
but what did he say?
"i dont want to see you take bass drum in the next practice"
in front of the whole section.
i feel sorry for saying that and just what you say make the feeling disappear.
i dont mind.
you want to let hariz take? since he is better than me
i got more time to study.

im so sorry for sayin' all this.
but this is actually the purpose im making this blog.
you guys want to say all my feelings.
here it is.
you might kill me after this especially when your name appear.
pls do. i dont feel like livin' too.
hate me or what. do whatever you like.

2010-01-28T02:12:00.000-08:00

cant seem to find the perfect skin for my new blog.
so i will use this skin which i cant seem to understand it.
feel so slack
finally one day without bein' too tired.
been studying for geog,physic and emaths for three days
which make me overslept today.
sleepin' at 12plus seems to become my daily routine.
wont score well even if i study so hard.
it is all too difficult for me,
cant seem to remember all e things i learn.
understand but forget how to do.
can we stop havin' tests?