Thursday, January 28, 2010 x 4:21 AM
goin' to talk about my attitude these days.
if you are goin' to be bored,
then dont read...
it is mostly about band.
i think this is my
rebellious moment.
karen just ask me in msn why i never go
just say that i feel tired and is my own attitude
haiz...
i seriously dont know what to say.
read chinmei blog and
i can see she blame it on julaina la.
well, she told me that she feel that julyy is the one who change us
me and weishian...
actually, its not.
no one can change me if im not willing.
i might look weak but im strong in my humble opinions
btt(back to topic), they want to know my feelings rite?
im going to say, RIGHT HERE.
first, they dont appreciate me.
i dont expect myself to be a what leader
or even feel jealous because im not chosen.
for the last two years,
i gave my all to band.
then what,
just for one stuupid tuition,
they show me their attitude.
i admit that im stuupid, slow in learning.
but do you always have to compare who is the best.
im trying my best right here not to be the worse
and this is how you guys treat me.
to be exact,
i only learn music since sec one,
and you compare me to those who got music background.
i know some seniors dont like me since sec one.
i just laugh it off since they graduated,
lets not talk about them.
you ask me in where i dont feel appreciated.
let me tell you.
when i "take care" of yuxi,
did anyone say thanks for making her feel welcome.
instead they just push everything to me.
"pls ask to what?" "tell her cannot"
and complain everything to me.
tell me that she might as well quit or what.
why am i doin' this?
i also dont know.
Secondly, i feel that im not respected.
even im wrong or what,
do you have to scold me in front of the juniors.
tryin' to make me embarrassed so i will learn?
good idea, the best idea i ever heard.
they never respect anyone in their lives.
call me pig, call kirthika black and others
we have feelings okay?
i know that you are joking but sometimes it hurt.
i laugh it off, what can i do?
i know im in the wrong for not respecting shawn
for telling him that i dont want to be bass drummer.
but what did he say?
"i dont want to see you take bass drum in the next practice"
in front of the whole section.
i feel sorry for saying that and just what you say make the feeling disappear.
i dont mind.
you want to let hariz take? since he is better than me
i got more time to study.
im so sorry for sayin' all this.
but this is actually the purpose im making this blog.
you guys want to say all my feelings.
here it is.
you might kill me after this especially when your name appear.
pls do. i dont feel like livin' too.
hate me or what. do whatever you like.
